Fashionista + Recession = Recessionista

Ok, so I recently quit my job, and can't afford to buy as many new clothes as id like too ( i get pretty tired of my wardrobe fairly quickly) so i came up with a few ideas to slightly solve that problem.
A. i love v necks, alot. so i found a store (forever 21) that sells them for about five dollars (and they have outlasted my american eagle ones) and they go with anything. you can dress them up or dress them down, use any jewelry, or you can... tye dye it.
B. Pants, if your jeans are getting too short, then lucky you, cause its summer time. cut them off, save your legs from the heat, grab a tan, and have one of a kind shorts at the same time.
C. Take an old tee-shirt, (preferably oversized) cut fringes in the bottom, and on the sleeves (tie knots, add beads, leave as is or get creative) Add and over sized belt at your preferred spot, and some cute boots, leggings or shorts if you feel like the tee is too short to be a dress.

add cute jewelry and your set:)

The Cigarette Song

this is for personal ranting purposes only. please dont feel obligated to read it. at all.

i thought i found the perfect guy. charming. sweet. there for me. talented. trustworthy. cute. called me every night before we fell asleep, because he wanted too. wrote me songs. easy to talk to, the uncanny and amazing ability to make me smile no matter what. we had the worlds most amazing conversations. we had big plans together.
i guess, because of my prior mentioned inability to keep a relationship. i messed it up. Which leads me to the following conclusion.

i should only date my father and before you start thinking incest, thats not what i mean. when i was younger, my dad and i used to have "dates" days that would just be me, and him. we'd go out for coffee, or what ever my heart desired. they were by far the best dates i had ever been on, he opened every door, treated me like a princess, we had amazing conversations about anything ad everything, we made plans for the future. He is the one and only guy in my life that treats me right, and keeps his plans with me. he didn't laugh at me when i couldn't dance, he never broke my heart, and he means the world to me. He is always there for me, no matter the issue, no matter how much he is disappointed in me. Other girls aren't as lucky as i am. some have terrible fathers, some have no father. but for me, the guy i date, has some pretty high standards to live up to. happy fathers day dad.

live and let... live?

Everyone (well almost everyone i have encountered) has an Ex. The Ex. I have definitely got one, your looking at him. I'll leave his name out, mostly because most of you (assuming i know you) know his name. If you don't then you probably don't need to.
I spent the better part of year in a half in Love with this kid. It wasn't until recently that i finally dug out all of the things of his that i had, and got rid of them (well, everything i had here, minus one thing.) and while i got over him a while ago, it felt nice to make it feel final.

After everything i went through with him, and everything he did, its a wonder i didn't move on sooner, but when you love someone, you tend to ignore everything your friends say, and the signs that he himself gives you that things are going downhill.
This blog has two purposes. 1.To rant (of course) 2. To offer advice, how ever useful (or unuseful) it may be.

First off, if your friends don't like them, hear them out, listen to them, they see things that you cannot. why? because they arent in love with him.

Second, go with your gut instinct. i knew we werent going to work out but i kept trying, because it kept (temporarily) easing the pain i felt from the breakups. in the long run it made me hurt ten million times worse. Since then i havnt been able to keep a normal functioning relationship... in fear that it will all repeat itself.
So do yourself a favor, do not keep pushing for something that isnt meant to be, save your feelings, and your future relationships... oh and your friendships too.

Under Pressure.

The pressure to have sex at my age is humongous. And i am about to say my piece on it.
Let's start with the obvious, Guys think if they buy you dinner, or take you too a movie, or sometimes if they just grace you with their presence that they deserve to get laid. Its as if (to them) that if you agree to a date your signing a contract to be intimate with them. (disclaimer; i am generalizing, and stereotyping, but don't take it personally, i do in fact know that some guys are not like this). on several occasions this has been a situation i have been put in, its to the point, where i'm scared to agree to go on a date, because i know that when i tell them good night and go on my way (instead of the... alternative) , their going to talk about me, and ill probably never see them again. Its getting to the point where guys need to grow up, and realize they are not gods greatest gift to the universe. not everyone wants to add to their notches on the bedpost. some girls have DIGNITY.
Secondly, if you have to get a girl(or guy) drunk to have sex with them. dont. have more respect for your fellow human beings and yourself.
Also, Friends with benefits is a completely bizarre term to me, youll have sex, but you dont want emotional ties to someone. if you cant be with someone. if you arent in love with them. then you dont need to be having sex with them. Sex is about emotions, and now sex is completely void of emotion ( so it seems)
Now, My rants on girls. specifically.
Do not feel like you have to throw your self at every guy you see, i feel like girls my age have to have sex to be reassured their attractive, or wantable. why dont, instead of going for the one night stand type of guys, you go for the sweet kind, one who will buy you lunch and not even pressure you for a kiss, one who will hold doors open for you, one who will call you beautiful or gorgeous instead of hott.

just a thought.