New In Town

After a roller-coaster of a year in arkansas (and trust me, it was a roller-coaster, Ups Downs and Twists included) im back in Colorado. Not for the reason you may think. As a military child, its always been easy for me to pick up from a situation and run. while some of the situations i was put in were not ideal (and believe me they weren't) this is not why i left. My father is deploying to iraq, and i came home to help my mom and brother out. If your from a military family you understand, these things are easier to deal with when your with your family, the end.
My mom asked me to come home, so i packed up my stuff, got my puppy ready, and awaited the uhaul to take me back to more mountains and less oxygen. i left people i love and care for behind, and is to date the hardest decision i have ever had to make. However much i may kid myself, their honestly wasn't much choice to be made, my mom said she needed me, the end.
So once again, i find myself getting acquainted (or reacquainted if you will) to an area. It has truly tested my strength, and continues to do so. Why? so glad you asked, heres the answer:
1. i left behind total freedom. freedom i dont have anymore.
2. every day brings my family closer and closer to my dad leaving, and me being here makes it more real to me.
3. i have to rebuild friendships with people i left behind a long time ago.
4. i left people i love very deeply home in arkansas, and have to keep relationships with them from 12 hours away.
5. Daily i run into people i have tried my hardest to keep buried in my past, an abusive ex ect.

but the good thing thats come from these trials? i have finally begun to find myself underneath the outer-skin we wear daily.
Every time i used to look at myself in the mirror i saw a person with brown hair, dark brown eyes, and thats about it.
Now i see a soul, one thats been through more than i ever thought it could bear. A strong, loyal soul.

So keep this in mind, next time you come across a trial in life, remember, a piece of you will be revealed to your mirror.