Style Style Style

Im going to try a new thing with my blog, and do style opinion pieces.
this is part of my: i don't know what i'm going to do when i grow up so i'm going to try everything phase.
enjoy!

i dont know where im going.

Hindsight is alway 20-20
Oh, I should have done this or i totally understand why she did that, i maybe could have reacted differently.
What you do today, can change your options in the future.
I don't want to be someone who looks back on my life and regret anything.
I dont know where im going, i dont know my future.
But i do know where ive been, and i do know where i am.
And honestly i am totally ok with that, because i only have control over what im doing now.
I only know the outcome of what i do now.
and, all i have to do is live the best life i can right now, and i wont regret anything in my future.

also, i made this picture 100%.

flyswatter

spending quality time with your family is imortant.
it doesnt matter what you do.
my brother and i are making videos once a week
amongst other things:]

i am NOT in your extended Network

Has anyone noticed the increase in vanity?
The number of self networking sites today is unreal.
Purevolume, Virb, Myspace, Twitter, Daily Booth, Facebook, youtube, buzznet, live journal, dead journal, the list goes on and on!
why do we as a society feel that everyone has to know whats going on with us...24/7? why do we assume they care?
now, im guilty have having a membership to a few of these sights. but i do have my reasons.
Facebook and myspace have helped me reconnect to old friends. Twitter i have to keep track of artists, ect. Daily booth.has to be my personal faveorite though.
Everyday i upload two pictures. one of my puppy. and one of myself. Basically. I want to do this for an entire year. everyday. i want to see how i change. and how moose grows. (plus...i wont ever forget to take a picture of moose while hes still a puppy!)

What do you think? do you think our society is just vain. or do you think social networksing is a good thing? does it help you keep track of your old friends.?
Do they push the line of being friendly and stalkerish?
just somethings to think about.

New In Town

After a roller-coaster of a year in arkansas (and trust me, it was a roller-coaster, Ups Downs and Twists included) im back in Colorado. Not for the reason you may think. As a military child, its always been easy for me to pick up from a situation and run. while some of the situations i was put in were not ideal (and believe me they weren't) this is not why i left. My father is deploying to iraq, and i came home to help my mom and brother out. If your from a military family you understand, these things are easier to deal with when your with your family, the end.
My mom asked me to come home, so i packed up my stuff, got my puppy ready, and awaited the uhaul to take me back to more mountains and less oxygen. i left people i love and care for behind, and is to date the hardest decision i have ever had to make. However much i may kid myself, their honestly wasn't much choice to be made, my mom said she needed me, the end.
So once again, i find myself getting acquainted (or reacquainted if you will) to an area. It has truly tested my strength, and continues to do so. Why? so glad you asked, heres the answer:
1. i left behind total freedom. freedom i dont have anymore.
2. every day brings my family closer and closer to my dad leaving, and me being here makes it more real to me.
3. i have to rebuild friendships with people i left behind a long time ago.
4. i left people i love very deeply home in arkansas, and have to keep relationships with them from 12 hours away.
5. Daily i run into people i have tried my hardest to keep buried in my past, an abusive ex ect.

but the good thing thats come from these trials? i have finally begun to find myself underneath the outer-skin we wear daily.
Every time i used to look at myself in the mirror i saw a person with brown hair, dark brown eyes, and thats about it.
Now i see a soul, one thats been through more than i ever thought it could bear. A strong, loyal soul.

So keep this in mind, next time you come across a trial in life, remember, a piece of you will be revealed to your mirror.

Fashionista + Recession = Recessionista

Ok, so I recently quit my job, and can't afford to buy as many new clothes as id like too ( i get pretty tired of my wardrobe fairly quickly) so i came up with a few ideas to slightly solve that problem.
A. i love v necks, alot. so i found a store (forever 21) that sells them for about five dollars (and they have outlasted my american eagle ones) and they go with anything. you can dress them up or dress them down, use any jewelry, or you can... tye dye it.
B. Pants, if your jeans are getting too short, then lucky you, cause its summer time. cut them off, save your legs from the heat, grab a tan, and have one of a kind shorts at the same time.
C. Take an old tee-shirt, (preferably oversized) cut fringes in the bottom, and on the sleeves (tie knots, add beads, leave as is or get creative) Add and over sized belt at your preferred spot, and some cute boots, leggings or shorts if you feel like the tee is too short to be a dress.

add cute jewelry and your set:)

The Cigarette Song

this is for personal ranting purposes only. please dont feel obligated to read it. at all.

i thought i found the perfect guy. charming. sweet. there for me. talented. trustworthy. cute. called me every night before we fell asleep, because he wanted too. wrote me songs. easy to talk to, the uncanny and amazing ability to make me smile no matter what. we had the worlds most amazing conversations. we had big plans together.
i guess, because of my prior mentioned inability to keep a relationship. i messed it up. Which leads me to the following conclusion.

i should only date my father and before you start thinking incest, thats not what i mean. when i was younger, my dad and i used to have "dates" days that would just be me, and him. we'd go out for coffee, or what ever my heart desired. they were by far the best dates i had ever been on, he opened every door, treated me like a princess, we had amazing conversations about anything ad everything, we made plans for the future. He is the one and only guy in my life that treats me right, and keeps his plans with me. he didn't laugh at me when i couldn't dance, he never broke my heart, and he means the world to me. He is always there for me, no matter the issue, no matter how much he is disappointed in me. Other girls aren't as lucky as i am. some have terrible fathers, some have no father. but for me, the guy i date, has some pretty high standards to live up to. happy fathers day dad.